Holiday plans 2013 :)

Hellooooo ^^ what's up! Oh my god can we just take a second to talk about how much I am excited for the holidays? HONESTLY! Majority of the world already had their summer vacation and I, well, am mugging at my literature textbook with a highlighter and pen at 2 am. #hardtruth. But seriously, I cannot wait to start relaxing and going all 'I AM FREEE'.
I thought I would take this chance to just talk to you guys a bit and just fangirl about what I plan to do for the upcoming holidays(soon enough) & is it appropriate to call it 'fangirling'? haha I don't even know. But yea lets get on with it shall we? ^_~

WELL, so where should I start? Okay why don't I tell you guys about the upcoming fashion channel and my personal channel. For any newcomers reading my blog, (hello I'm Li Ling you can call me CLL, I love unicorns and coco crunch) what I am actually talking about are my youtube channels :) so Angie and I have already planned on some outfits and we are going to start filming after exams(especially because I got my new camera!!!) and I really hope you guys will enjoy the videos we put up. Do comment constructive criticism as well as things we do well and should continue on. It's a whole different ball game that we will be going to play so we will need some guidance on the field.
As for my personal channel, I will probably start filming 'Follow me around' vlogs and travel dairies(which I will mention later). I also have some advice videos up my sleeve so I'm uber excited!

Oh yea! I have some amazing news! I have created my new fashion blog! oOOOOooooo haha! I'm so stoked for more style profiles and pictures and everything so do check it out - fashionfluentx.blogspot.com
Haven't posted much on there but I think it's because exams are basically the only thing clouding up my mind haha! I will post there soon when i get back my inspiration ^_~

SO! For my holidays, I will be going on some trips out with my friendies :D I don't really know what we are going to do yet but we are definitely going to USS(Universal Studios SG) which I can't wait for!!! I heard a lot of the rides will be closed but whatever. My friend told me I could get an annual membership card for free or something so I'll just go there a bunch of times. It will be so fun omg!

During the holidays I also really want to catch up on all the shows and movies that I have missed. Pretty Little Liars, Twisted, Sam & Cat are some TV shows. For movies would probably be Smurf 2(or was it 3 OMG haha!), This is Us and Despicable Me 2. Apart from all the 'visuals' I also want to start reading the books that I have been putting off for way too long. I am still reading Paper Towns(after so long) and I really want to read the Divergent series as well as the Mortal instruments series before I watch the movies. John Green will also probably be in there somewhere because he is the love of my life(apart from Jimmy neutron and Mike Wazowski). 

Speaking of books which in my head equals up to 'going to a whole different world', I WILL BE GOING TO HONG KONG!!! I am so friggin excited! For the most part I'm excited because it will be all cold there and lord knows how long it has been since I last went to a place where it was 'cold'. I am so super duper stoked to start wearing my cute socks and boots and my awesome knit beanie. Who knows? I might actually really start being overly attached to beanies and buy a whole bunch of them to wear back here in SG(which is a fashion plus but not really weather appropriate). Yea I will be shopping a whole lot.
This is not confirmed yet but I PROBABLY WILL BE GOING TO NEPAL EVEN IF I DON'T KNOW WHETHER HONG KONG IS ALREADY TOO MUCH AND MOM WANTS TO PUT OFF THE NEPAL TRIP. But yea my mom wants to go to Nepal soon and I am actually quite excited for the sight-seeing and trekking. I'm a pretty fit person(I'm just trying to make myself feel better haha!) 

And in the topic of my mom, she will be free starting October and she's planning to start working on the house. You know organising and all that jazz. I'm going to be helping her with re-decorating the study room too! 

So as you can see from that ginormous chunk of words that I will be preeettyy busy. Honestly, I don't know how or why I can come up with so much words in one blog post. *sorry if i'm overwhelming anyone* But yea this is it for this blog post and I hope you guys enjoyed reading!
              
                                                          LOVE YA! (credit to this adorable kid)

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CLL

Dealing with humans

Hey guys :) Today I'll be writing another blog post about a specific topic and not a blog post about all the stuff I've been up to and just random stuff in my head haha!
So the very interesting heading up there.. 'Dealing with Humans'. It literally makes me sound like I am alien or something but hey, some people really seem to be from another world(AND ARE SO HARD TO UNDERSTAND!)

    So, quite recently I have realised that my time is precious and that I should spend it wisely. To spend it on the things I love to do and not regret, but more importantly, to spend it with the right people. I have met so many people that are in my life for all the wrong reasons. People who just want to gain something from me or just love 'drama'. Am I the only one who has 'friends' that you have fought with several times then make up but you still have this feeling like they are still against you or secretly hating on you? Whilst typing that sentence one particular quote I thought of was 'Most of the time the one you would take a bullet for is usually the one behind the gun.'

I couldn't agree more.

     However, I'm not saying that we should be overly insecure or so 'afraid' that we don't want to meet new people or trust anyone. I'm just saying that when you do meet someone, you have to listen to yourself. You, yourself, will know whether you have this 'secret, unknown' barrier in between you and them. You will know when you are not 100% comfortable with them and you will know when you are not yourself/ are straining yourself to do something else you would normally do.

If you really can't figure anything out and your thoughts are a mess, you probably haven't been spending much time with yourself. Learn to love being with people. But also learn to love being with yourself. You need to get to know and understand everything about yourself because no one else will know you as much as you do. Discover things you love as well as hate. Learn to go with your instincts and trust yourself. 
     I personally am both a people person as well as a kept-to-myself person. I like the background noise of giggles and chatter. I also like plain white silence. Yes, thats how I picture silence. 
 I like the comfort and security of someone beside me. Whether they are my friends or just family. I like talking about the things that happened that day or that week. I also like listening to their stories. 
But, I also feel a sense of independence and easiness by myself. I like bus rides home with no one beside me. Just the sounds in my iPod. I like how I think about everything and anything when I watch the world outside that window and get lost in my thoughts. 

     Sometimes, I really find the need to get away from all these people. All these humans. Its times like this when the only person I need, is myself. It's not selfish or narcissistic or ungrateful. Its completely normal that sometimes you just need time alone. To listen to yourself and just think in peace.     

     Sometimes there are so many people with messy thoughts, messy emotions, messy words, messy actions that you just want to part with the messiness. 

     Sometimes the room is too small or there are too many people that all you want to do is run and hide in a quiet corner when you can actually hear your thoughts again. Where your senses can actually settle down and your eyes can actually focus on something that is not moving again. 

After all this jazz, its time to face the world.

There are many types of people in this world. 7 billion people is a whole lot of numbers. A whole lot of people. And in your life you will encounter some people who are what people call, 'mean'. An understatement. In reality, these people are horrible, selfish, parsimonious, egotistical, penurious, annoying, hurtful, insane, inhuman and completely oblivious.

You will find someone you love with all your heart but you'll also find someone you hate that much.

It works as a balance.

You can't possibly live under a rock your entire life and say that thats the only way you can refrain from getting hurt. You have to go out there one day and face everything and everyone. Your fears will always be right behind you but you can't let them squeeze you dry. There will certainly be people there to step on your hands when you are trying to get back onto safe grounds. The people that will push you back down into the hot hard earth they stamp their feet on. The people that can crush you like you're that pathetic piece of dirty paper someone left their footprints on that can no longer be used.

Of course those footprints will forever be ingrained in your heart. The black marks that can never be erased and the more you try to erase it the more you will tear. 

However, you just have to understand that all these moments with all these humans and all these challenges and all the times you have been the bowling pin, will make you that much more of a strong and beautiful person.

I know this was a long post but it was all I had to say :)

Hope you guys found inspiration & enjoyed this post.

LOVE YA!

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CLL

New camera! + thoughts || CyberTalk

Hey guys! So from the title of this post you would know that.. I GOT A NEW CAMERA!

I have been saving up for a camera for quite a while now and it was a very spontaneous decision to buy one at the Comex fair yesterday. I ended up getting a Canon Powershot G15 which is not as compact as most of the other cameras in the Powershot series but its definitely not as bulky and big as the Canon DSLR's. It also has amazing photo and video quality with amazing auto-focus. I got it at the fair for $549 instead of $599 but not only the fact that we got a discount, the camera also came along with many amazing freebies(the main reason why we bought it at the fair and not anywhere else). It came with 2 SD cards, a strap that goes around your neck, a leather casing, some really amazing mint headphones and a.. iHOME! yes! an iHome. Its a really basic blue cube speaker and I am absolutely in love with it. So I think that this camera was so so worth it for its price plus all the goodies.

I plan on making so many more videos with this camera. I won't necessarily upload all of them to Youtube but I do plan on making more travel diaries and I really want to stretch and improve my photography skills. I have realised that I have a big passion for photography but I never really had the chance to further develop and improve when mostly all I had was my iPhone. My sister also had quite a few camera's that she passed on to me. One Sony camera and another big DSLR. And don't get me wrong. These camera's are great but I really don't know how to use them. The video quality on the Sony camera is not really good and the DSLR(I don't know which brand is from) can't take videos at all. The DSLR is also so confusing to use and I guess there was a reason why my sister gave it to me and bought a new and improved one.

My mom had actually bought it for me as a birthday present but I paid her back last night. One, because I thought it was my way of paying her back for buying me all the craft stuff I made her buy for me last time and two, because I know people will think I'm spoilt or unappreciative or get everything I want. I had quite a close friend that lives near me but once I told her that my mom was getting me a camera she said 'eh why you're mother always get everything you want one?'. She may have said it sarcastically but it annoyed me quite a bit.

SO YEAAA THATS MY WHOLE ENTIRE CHUNK OF WORDS ABOUT  MY CAMERA HAHA! Oh yea! I wanna show you some pictures I took with my camera.

Yup :) Thanks for reading! LOVE YA

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CLL

Thoughts on -Happiness-

hello beauties or handsomies? I don't even know. Haha yes, I am back and yes, I do realise that I have been blogging way more often nowadays and I don't know whether you guys like it better or not but whatever haha. Anyways, as you can tell from this title, it's gonna be yet another one of those cheesy blog posts that people like me always seem to do. I really wanted to talk to you guys about being happy. And since I think pretty much no one else reads this blog other than probably 5 other people, this is just going to be advice for myself I think. 

Define the word 'happy'. Yup just take a moment right now to think about this. Because so many people have different definitions of happiness. But the feeling is always the same. I'm just going to try to describe this feeling here. Joy. With no hesitation or no need to pretend or fake. That surprising ease of smiling or laughing. Yea thats the best I can do haha. So back to my 3rd sentence of this paragraph(calculative much?). Different definitions of happiness. For example, you're a dare devil. You love adrenaline rushes and definitely are not afraid very easily. Then theres a shy, kept to himself/herself person. Gets scared really easily, does NOT like change. Put both of them on a helicopter to go skydiving. The dare devil would probably be elated. The shy guy? Well, not so much. So obviously theres a huge difference between what we call 'happiness' depending on our personalities or likings. You can't blame someone for being a 'party-pooper' or whatever when you dragged that person into doing things that you like when he/she obviously does not want to be a part of it. 

HOWEVER! There is a HUGE HUGE HUGE difference between someone who is naturally scared easily(which can be helped) and someone who just has a 'I hate everything' mindset. Of course, we have to excuse some people that are just not having a good day or just 'PMSing'. But at the same time..

Yes. Happiness is a choice. You can't blame the world and complain *whiny sassy voice* 'Oh my god, why is it so hard to be happy' or 'Oh my god, I feel so down all the time'

No.

No, no, no, no.

Cause' you know what? You are in charge of your own life. Doesn't mean if you are having a bad day that you can't smile or laugh at something that is genuinely funny to you. You can't do that and then complain that the world is just going against you. The shy guy can probably say 'Well, I might puke and might black out but oh my god im on a helicopter and I can touch the clouds. Cool.' yea that might be just me but even still you get what I mean. Are you seriously just going to sit on that god damn helicopter and cry and sulk and give everyone in the world the cold shoulder? Are you seriously going to go on for the rest of your life thinking that God is cruel and people are disgusting and selfish? Honestly, I have met way too many people like this. Why can't you just let go for once and just go for it? 

If it's really something you always wanted to do but you're scared, it's okay. You can catch the second helicopter. Or the third. As long as you get on that helicopter and skydive for the first time because that was just something you really wanted to do for your whole life, you have succeeded. And I can't even explain how amazing it will feel after you let yourself feel happy and not have a care in the world. Yea you might puke in mid-air and it would get in a pigeons eye, but one day you will look back and say 'oh my god that was one of the highlights of my life' and then you would laugh at yourself for puking out your blueberry pancakes you ate that morning. 

Happiness is seriously such an amazing feeling. If you really don't feel happy that day, tell yourself that if you were going to die the next day, would you rather smile today and cry tomorrow or cry both days? If you can't get yourself to be happy, smile. Force it if you have to. Studies have shown that your body has an effect on your mind. If you smile, somehow, you will feel happier. 

So here is a cool pic I found....

Thank you so much for reading this :)

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CLL

Recent music & book loves || CyberTalk

Heyyy :) SO I know the past few posts have been kinda emo and 'bleh' but heres a post that is a bit happier haha! I will be telling you the things I have been loving recently and yup!

So firstly, I think I have totally found my favourite song ever. you know like when people ask you whats you favourite song? I will always be like 'I actually don't know' But hey. guess what? I THINK I FOUND MY ALL TIME FAVOURITE! Its not like a totally new song but it has over 12 million views on youtube and I'm actually listening to it right now. Its called 'King of anything' by Sara Bareillies. I know her name is not THAT famous but I swear her songs are the most amazing. I mean I would totally turn to T-swizzle when I need a little romance and fairytale in my life. but most of the time I just need some type of encouragement. Sara Bareillies is definitely the person I would search up. Her songs are so relatable in such a different way. She seems to perfectly describe life into lyrics. Do go search this song up.

It has such a cheerful vibe to it that it just makes me smile. I particularly like the part when she says 'you've got opinions, man. we're all entitled to. but I never asked.' I swear I laugh everytime I hear it. Its so true and its definitely one of those things where you think in your head but never show through our actions/words. Oh and when she says 'Don't expect me to jump up on board with you, ride off into your delusional sunset' omg thats just like owning every single person that tries to make us do something they THINK is right for us. so definitely go check it out and i'm sure you will love it! To make things easier for you.. Sara Bareillies- King Of Anything

Another thing i have been loving lately is.. wait for it... reading. YES! reading. HAHAH! I didnt read much from p4 till p6 and I can't believe how much i have been missing out on. The other day I decided to make a list of books to read and after having some recommendations and stuff, I had 135 books on my 'to-read' list. So far I think I have read around 2 out of the 135 and I'm working on my third one. I think i'm starting to become a real bookworm.. oops I mean book lion! (If anyone knows where I got this from your awesome haha) Heres a vid about 'bookworms' I found that really made laugh Bookworm

The first book was 'Safe Haven' by Nicholas Sparks which was a good read but not as good as 'The Notebook' which I read earlier in the year.

Safe Haven was one of the books that could really make my heart pound when it came to the climax and I was so 'tuned in' with the book that I was even paranoid that the psycho husband would come for me. If you guys are totally lost right now, then its okay I'll explain haha. Safe Haven is basically about this girl that had a really abusive husband. She always had hope that he would stop hurting her because he always said he would. But of course he didn't. So the book explains how she finally managed to run away to her very own 'safe haven' where she finds her true love. Heres a review that I found but it does have some spoilers so be prepared! Safe Haven Review (Theres also a movie out for this one but I have yet to watch it)

 The second one was 'Perks of being a wallflower' by Stephen Chbosky.

This book has some parts that really describe my life really well and the fact that it was written in the view of the 'wallflower', it definitely gave me a whole new perspective of the book. So overall, I LOVED IT! I'm excited to watch the movie but I'm really afraid it would change the 'perfect' story that I have drawn out in my head. Honestly, I dont think movies really give the books justice. Heres the review: TPOBAW Review

The third one(which I am reading now) is 'Paper Towns' by John Green.

The first few pages was actually not really appealing and I didn't really understand it but as I went on, I really started getting engrossed in it haha. I can't really tell you guys how I feel about it right now because I'm only a 100 pages in out of the idk 500? So yea! But heres a review I found Paper Towns Review

soooooo yyeaaaaaaa THATS THE MUSIC AND BOOKS I HAVE BEEN LUVINN hahahah :) So if anyone has good books/music to recommend me do tweet me at @CLLxheart or comment on this blog post! THANKKS LOVE YAA!

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CLL

Turning 13!

hellooo :) Im back and yes my birthday passed a few days ago :)) And for those who wished me happy birthday and gave me amazing gifts, thank you so so so much. I really appreciate it ^_~ I will upload some pics from my birthday(just some pics with my friends at the pool) down below but right now lets just get on with the updates shall we?

so, how are you guys doing? good? lucky you -.- Idek whether im PMSing or something but I swear this is probably the time of the year where I hate everything and I wanna scream so bad. Well of course when this 'hatred' comes, I'm probably 5 times more emotional than I already am. Which is VERY emotional. trust me haha.  I get pissed at myself and others so easily now that I feel bad 5 minutes later.

But anyways, can I just say that omg I have totally lost my studying spirit. I swear I don't finish my homework on time nowadays and I procrastinate on everything now. I know it's bad and I wanna stop it but every single time I sit down and plan to have a serious study session, I end up back on my bed or just staring at the piece of paper in front of me. This is like THE worst time to get all complacent because hello li ling? your final year exams are in 4 weeks? and hello? you're in a school that can just kick you out anytime? <--- woah lets just take a moment to process that I just talked to myself in a blog post right there. yup. yes I just did.  But yes thats me right now.

So other than my birthday, I honestly haven't had much going on in my life. Been busy with CCA's and stuff and finally put together the outfits for the fashion channel yesterday(oooooo) haha! I hope you guys are excited because we sure are. But yea I just wanted to update you guys on my life and hey! did ya notice my new blog design? yup yup I changed it again haha! It took me awhile to get this finished product but I hope you like it ^_~ I love you guys and stay awesome!

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CLL

Exams over now what? || CyberTalk

Hello my friendsies haha :) Welcome back to my blog. SO my CA2 exams just ended today but honestly, I'm just as stressed -.- SO many things to do all at once. BUT BUT BUT! I have some great plans for my youtube channel like more challenges and tags with more of my friends. Hold up. Can we talk about my youtube channel for a while?
Some people think that I make this channel to like show off or get attention or shit like that. But puh-lease. LOL! Now i'm clarifying that I did not make my youtube channel to do any of these things. I only share my channel with a selective group of friends which I know enjoy watching me embarress myself on camera. AND also because I love this group of people. Another reason is that I think through this 'youtube experience', I will get to understand myself better. Yes! I just said that. haha. Honestly, I'm only 12 and a half. I have no bloody idea who I even am yet. I didn't know my favourite colour/animal(other than unicorns) until a month ago! So yea thats that

SO BACK TO THE TOPIC. I have some really exciting plans for youtube. Angie and I are going to start a..... FASHION CHANNEL! mhmm haha. I've been thinking about making something like this and only found out that Angie wanted the same thing like a week ago haha! I'm super stoked to start putting the outfits together and stuff so do check it out when it happens :) I have also met an awesome new friend by the name of Annika(HI IF YOU'RE READING) and turns out she lives so near to me and we really want to start making tags and challenges for you guys. SO YEA! those are my plans for now :)

This is Angie if you didn't know which you probably didn't but heyyyy

One thing that I really am NOT looking forward to is the Final Year Exam which is less then idk.. 5 weeks? URGH IKR TOTAL BUMMER! But yea lets just put the unhappy stuff aside -.- NOW LETS TALK ABOUT MAH BURTHDAY!

Haha. So my birthday is in like 2 days time and i'm really excited yet reluctant to turn 13. But also excited for the presents haha! But I suddenly feel older when I know Im going to turn 13 soon. I mean, 13 = teenage years. No more child's meal or child's ticket or child's prices.. NOT EVEN CHILDRENS DAY! But, I do hope that as I grow up, I'll never lose my youth or young spirit. I don't want to become the teenager/adult that has known what the world is like and is giving up on it. Yes, I do already know how the world works and what is like, trust me, but I still want to be happy :)) SO YEAAAA IM EXCITED FOR THE PRESENTS AND UNICORNS AND CAKE AND FOOD SO ILL TRY TO POST PICS OF THESE AWESOME THINGS WHEN I CAN!

yup yup so thats it for this post :) Stay awesome and I LOVE YA!

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CLL