Appreciation & Acknowledgement

I think we need to realise that humans are social creatures. 

We need to have others who surround us- friends, family. And I think that it is really really important to realise that you should be appreciative of these people around you. Because without them, you wouldn't be who you are today. You'd be terribly lonely and upset. And if you guys have been following me for a while, you all know how much I stress the importance of being comfortable being yourself and being by yourself. But at the end of the day you need people.

Firstly, family.

My family is the most important thing in my life. Right now and forever. I go through many struggles and I feel a deep sense of regret when I can't properly converse with my family. I'm not the best in Mandarin or Cantonese and with most of my family being in Malaysia and speaking these languages; it gets really hard for me and I'm sure it is frustrating for them as well. Though there is this language barrier, I try really hard to show them that I enjoy their company. 

When it comes to my immediate family, no doubt about it they are the ones closest to my heart. I have a serious case of pessimism and hence I have caught myself overthinking and just having anxiety over the potential loss of a family member. And it scares me more than anything.

Of course, I get into tiffs with my family sometimes. Those are mostly due to miscommunication or my sensitivity. But the beautiful thing is that we end up forgiving each other anyway.

I can't help but notice a lot of things negative things when it comes to family members. Nowadays, it is rare to see/hear about the love one has for another as opposed to the things that annoy them. There are so many instances where I open my twitter page and I see "i hate my dad" or "my mom is so annoying". Yea dude of course I get that being around people and not having your way can get frustrating sometimes, but I never directly speak or post about it on any of my social media sites. 

It's important to deal with a matter with someone so close to you in a mature way because tweeting about your family is equivalent to what we call "talking behind their backs" and it's so sad that a lot of teens can't deal with their frustration or anger properly and have to resort to lashing out on a public platform. 

And especially because it is a public social platform, you can potentially ignite a lot of negative feelings in others. For example... what if someone who sees that tweet doesn't have a mom? What if they'd give anything in the world to have someone to call their mom and to be able to speak and spend time with? It hits a soft spot when it comes to these topics. Because a lot of my life I have seen orphans and children and friends who break down because they want to have a family so so bad.

Learn to appreciate that they want to spend time with you. Learn to acknowledge and accept. Learn to see the good in things instead of "I don't want to do this but you want to so you ruin my life". It's important to realise that anyone in the world who would put you first and want the best for you- the first people on the list would be your parents and family. 

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Next, friends.

I've had my fair share of negative experiences with friendships. 

I've spoken all about this in my blogpost about Bullying. Although they really weren't the best experiences, I learnt and grew a lot from it. And I learned to truly treasure every single friend that I have. I've learnt to pick out qualities and things that my friends do for me and just "marinate" it in my mind and my heart and truly let all of it sink into a pit of sheer appreciation haha.

Hence I always try my best to acknowledge what my friends do for me and I try to let them know how much I appreciate them. And for me, the most basic thing between a friendship is that it has to be real. It has to be honest and true. If I find that I have something wrong with that friendship, I'll let it be known. That's far better than leading someone else on and giving false hope that you can be there for them when you really can't/won't.
I think that if you want to be in a friendship, commit to it wholeheartedly. You can't decide one day to hate the person and the next day to be their best friend. You can't start saying bad things about your friend behind their back and then going back and pretending nothing happened. I think we need friends to rely on and it's cruel to let a friend think that she can fall when you won't be there to catch her.

One of my closest friends has been and is still in a toxic friendship.
She knows what's going on. She knows that her "friend" isn't truly there for her. But she tries to brush it off because that girl is "popular" or she finds the need to be her friend. I had a gutt feeling from the start that this was the type of relationship they had. And I tried very hard to get my friend to leave that toxic friendship behind. But she didn't and I understand anyways because I know how scary it is to feel alone.

The situation angered me a lot. Because I get really protective and sensitive over people that I really care about and love. And I had absolutely no sympathy for the person who would talk horribly behind her back and then turn to look like the broken one.

Anyways, that's pretty much all I wanted to include in this blog post.
I hope that you will find some time everyday to make love known and express gratitude because that's the only way we will have a kinder society and better relationships.

With that, I want to tell all of my readers that I appreciate you guys so much. It means more than you know that there are people who enjoy the content that I make and little things that go through my head that I decide to write about. Writing is one of my biggest passions and it means so much when I get little notes on askfm or twitter saying that they like my blog and etcetera. And I want all of my readers to know that I blog to document my life and at the same time make an impact in the world in my small way. I try my best to make what I put out here impactful and useful.

Thanks so much for reading!
SEE YA!

Signing off...
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