You Are More

Hey everyone :) I'm back! I have so many projects & posts that I have been working on lately but I was thinking... My blog is suppose to be where I show my true feelings through words and let my friends or  any of my readers know the person I am. I must admit that I do try to hide when I'm upset or I only blog when I'm feeling happy. Well, that is, I would post the posts where I actually sound happy in haha!

But, I wrote this little... hmm... I wouldn't call it a poem... more like a little passage, trying my hardest to describe whatever I, as well as the people in the stories I have heard, was feeling. I actually know of many girls that go through so many tough battles that I can't even comprehend how they manage to go through it. And I am a 100% aware of the people out there in the world that may be having the shittiest day of their life right now. So i thought that sharing this 'little passage' with the world would at least touch someones heart or at least be comforted by the fact that someone out there in this large and vast universe, is feeling the same way.

So here goes....

You are

more than the single yellow among all the pink flowers...
more than the ache in your heart you try to get rid of
by punching your chest
more than that little voice in your head saying 'you're such a mess'
more than that 1 minute longer you take, locked in your bedroom
just so your eyes won't be red when you go out to face the world again

You are more
than that ball in your throat
that feels as big as a fist
that you try so hard to swallow
more than the keeping in of your sobs so no one would know
that inside your strong facade in someone they'd never known

You are more
than a sad story that is only told until years later
more than that point in time when something hits you and you start to waver

You are more
than that fake smile you practiced a million times in front of the mirror
that is so perfectly rehearsed to keep you masked & covered

You are more
than the biting of your lip
more than the hands that live in your pockets
more than the looking at your shoes in the attempt to shelter your face
& more than just 'someone of a different race'

You are more
than the quivering of your lips before you start to cry
more than that light above you that you stare at motionless before you close your eyes
more than those endless deep breaths you take
more than crawling under the covers as if its like a shield you made

You are more
than switching off your lights & pretending you're asleep
when in reality, the pool you were in was much too deep

You are more
than the pounding of your head
while you beg yourself to think happy thoughts instead

You are much more than you'd ever know
but I do hope one day you would realise
& I would say 'I told you so'.

                                       - Li Ling

Thank you for reading.

This was a post I had been thinking whether I should post or just forget about but either way... 

LOVE YA!(stay strong)

Signing off...

CLL