Recent music & book loves || CyberTalk

Heyyy :) SO I know the past few posts have been kinda emo and 'bleh' but heres a post that is a bit happier haha! I will be telling you the things I have been loving recently and yup!

So firstly, I think I have totally found my favourite song ever. you know like when people ask you whats you favourite song? I will always be like 'I actually don't know' But hey. guess what? I THINK I FOUND MY ALL TIME FAVOURITE! Its not like a totally new song but it has over 12 million views on youtube and I'm actually listening to it right now. Its called 'King of anything' by Sara Bareillies. I know her name is not THAT famous but I swear her songs are the most amazing. I mean I would totally turn to T-swizzle when I need a little romance and fairytale in my life. but most of the time I just need some type of encouragement. Sara Bareillies is definitely the person I would search up. Her songs are so relatable in such a different way. She seems to perfectly describe life into lyrics. Do go search this song up.

It has such a cheerful vibe to it that it just makes me smile. I particularly like the part when she says 'you've got opinions, man. we're all entitled to. but I never asked.' I swear I laugh everytime I hear it. Its so true and its definitely one of those things where you think in your head but never show through our actions/words. Oh and when she says 'Don't expect me to jump up on board with you, ride off into your delusional sunset' omg thats just like owning every single person that tries to make us do something they THINK is right for us. so definitely go check it out and i'm sure you will love it! To make things easier for you.. Sara Bareillies- King Of Anything

Another thing i have been loving lately is.. wait for it... reading. YES! reading. HAHAH! I didnt read much from p4 till p6 and I can't believe how much i have been missing out on. The other day I decided to make a list of books to read and after having some recommendations and stuff, I had 135 books on my 'to-read' list. So far I think I have read around 2 out of the 135 and I'm working on my third one. I think i'm starting to become a real bookworm.. oops I mean book lion! (If anyone knows where I got this from your awesome haha) Heres a vid about 'bookworms' I found that really made laugh Bookworm

The first book was 'Safe Haven' by Nicholas Sparks which was a good read but not as good as 'The Notebook' which I read earlier in the year.

Safe Haven was one of the books that could really make my heart pound when it came to the climax and I was so 'tuned in' with the book that I was even paranoid that the psycho husband would come for me. If you guys are totally lost right now, then its okay I'll explain haha. Safe Haven is basically about this girl that had a really abusive husband. She always had hope that he would stop hurting her because he always said he would. But of course he didn't. So the book explains how she finally managed to run away to her very own 'safe haven' where she finds her true love. Heres a review that I found but it does have some spoilers so be prepared! Safe Haven Review (Theres also a movie out for this one but I have yet to watch it)

 The second one was 'Perks of being a wallflower' by Stephen Chbosky.

This book has some parts that really describe my life really well and the fact that it was written in the view of the 'wallflower', it definitely gave me a whole new perspective of the book. So overall, I LOVED IT! I'm excited to watch the movie but I'm really afraid it would change the 'perfect' story that I have drawn out in my head. Honestly, I dont think movies really give the books justice. Heres the review: TPOBAW Review

The third one(which I am reading now) is 'Paper Towns' by John Green.

The first few pages was actually not really appealing and I didn't really understand it but as I went on, I really started getting engrossed in it haha. I can't really tell you guys how I feel about it right now because I'm only a 100 pages in out of the idk 500? So yea! But heres a review I found Paper Towns Review

soooooo yyeaaaaaaa THATS THE MUSIC AND BOOKS I HAVE BEEN LUVINN hahahah :) So if anyone has good books/music to recommend me do tweet me at @CLLxheart or comment on this blog post! THANKKS LOVE YAA!

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CLL

Turning 13!

hellooo :) Im back and yes my birthday passed a few days ago :)) And for those who wished me happy birthday and gave me amazing gifts, thank you so so so much. I really appreciate it ^_~ I will upload some pics from my birthday(just some pics with my friends at the pool) down below but right now lets just get on with the updates shall we?

so, how are you guys doing? good? lucky you -.- Idek whether im PMSing or something but I swear this is probably the time of the year where I hate everything and I wanna scream so bad. Well of course when this 'hatred' comes, I'm probably 5 times more emotional than I already am. Which is VERY emotional. trust me haha.  I get pissed at myself and others so easily now that I feel bad 5 minutes later.

But anyways, can I just say that omg I have totally lost my studying spirit. I swear I don't finish my homework on time nowadays and I procrastinate on everything now. I know it's bad and I wanna stop it but every single time I sit down and plan to have a serious study session, I end up back on my bed or just staring at the piece of paper in front of me. This is like THE worst time to get all complacent because hello li ling? your final year exams are in 4 weeks? and hello? you're in a school that can just kick you out anytime? <--- woah lets just take a moment to process that I just talked to myself in a blog post right there. yup. yes I just did.  But yes thats me right now.

So other than my birthday, I honestly haven't had much going on in my life. Been busy with CCA's and stuff and finally put together the outfits for the fashion channel yesterday(oooooo) haha! I hope you guys are excited because we sure are. But yea I just wanted to update you guys on my life and hey! did ya notice my new blog design? yup yup I changed it again haha! It took me awhile to get this finished product but I hope you like it ^_~ I love you guys and stay awesome!

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CLL

Exams over now what? || CyberTalk

Hello my friendsies haha :) Welcome back to my blog. SO my CA2 exams just ended today but honestly, I'm just as stressed -.- SO many things to do all at once. BUT BUT BUT! I have some great plans for my youtube channel like more challenges and tags with more of my friends. Hold up. Can we talk about my youtube channel for a while?
Some people think that I make this channel to like show off or get attention or shit like that. But puh-lease. LOL! Now i'm clarifying that I did not make my youtube channel to do any of these things. I only share my channel with a selective group of friends which I know enjoy watching me embarress myself on camera. AND also because I love this group of people. Another reason is that I think through this 'youtube experience', I will get to understand myself better. Yes! I just said that. haha. Honestly, I'm only 12 and a half. I have no bloody idea who I even am yet. I didn't know my favourite colour/animal(other than unicorns) until a month ago! So yea thats that

SO BACK TO THE TOPIC. I have some really exciting plans for youtube. Angie and I are going to start a..... FASHION CHANNEL! mhmm haha. I've been thinking about making something like this and only found out that Angie wanted the same thing like a week ago haha! I'm super stoked to start putting the outfits together and stuff so do check it out when it happens :) I have also met an awesome new friend by the name of Annika(HI IF YOU'RE READING) and turns out she lives so near to me and we really want to start making tags and challenges for you guys. SO YEA! those are my plans for now :)

This is Angie if you didn't know which you probably didn't but heyyyy

One thing that I really am NOT looking forward to is the Final Year Exam which is less then idk.. 5 weeks? URGH IKR TOTAL BUMMER! But yea lets just put the unhappy stuff aside -.- NOW LETS TALK ABOUT MAH BURTHDAY!

Haha. So my birthday is in like 2 days time and i'm really excited yet reluctant to turn 13. But also excited for the presents haha! But I suddenly feel older when I know Im going to turn 13 soon. I mean, 13 = teenage years. No more child's meal or child's ticket or child's prices.. NOT EVEN CHILDRENS DAY! But, I do hope that as I grow up, I'll never lose my youth or young spirit. I don't want to become the teenager/adult that has known what the world is like and is giving up on it. Yes, I do already know how the world works and what is like, trust me, but I still want to be happy :)) SO YEAAAA IM EXCITED FOR THE PRESENTS AND UNICORNS AND CAKE AND FOOD SO ILL TRY TO POST PICS OF THESE AWESOME THINGS WHEN I CAN!

yup yup so thats it for this post :) Stay awesome and I LOVE YA!

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CLL

Colour Run 13'

Hey! so it is already around 11pm and I have exams tmr but I really wanted to do this blog post today :) So here I go. Today, 18th of August, I have another day to add to my list of 'highlights of my life'. I got to participate in this 5km untimed run called 'Colour Run'. I have shared this with you guys in my previous posts I think :) So, of course before I set off, I had to take an ootd(outfit of the day) haha!

Then after that, I just met up with a few friends. Out of 4 of them, I honestly only knew one of them which is Jolynn haha. But seriously, I can't be more glad to have gotten to know 3 new friends this month. Plus, I have to thank them as well for making this experience as fun as it was for me.

Kym beside me haha, Jolynn in the middle with the bangs, Annika beside her and lastly, Kevan which is the only dude in this picture.... haha!

So, we just ate lunch and talked and got to know each other and we had to go to Long John Silvers -.- but the food wasen't THAT bad haha. After that, we walked around Vivo a bit and got some Starbucks 

I decided to try out what is usually called 'cotton candy frap' haha! Of course, I had to get the cream because its the best part! 

so we just did stuff and walked around until it was time to go to Sentosa. I decided to take some pictures with  Kym on the way haha!

ooooo :))

Anyways, after a lot of walking and being clueless and stuff, we started the race. BUT, of course, we walked like aunties on a hunt for some new pair of sparkly pants(i just made that up haha) I loved the adrenaline rush everytime we knew a colour 'attack' was up ahead. Pink was definitely my favourite but it also got everywhere and I had a hard time getting it off when I got home. While we walked, we took lots of photos and videos. I would be doing a very short 'teaser' video on it then I'll do a detailed vlog so stay tuned for the next few posts :) After we finished, we stayed and danced and screamed a bit before going home :) so here are the pics...

And of course my finished product/masterpiece......

Haha! Yes, I had to scrub a lot when I got home. It even hurt! But can I just add that even though I started to get really irritated with all the pink everywhere when I got home, it is really one of the best times i have had. To add on to that, I could not have asked for a better before-birthday event. Through this post I also want to thank all the special people that shared today with me and though I have only just met you today/a few hours ago, I just want to say that.. I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!

hahaahahahha yup kay. gtg sleep. LOVE YA!

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CLL

Those days :( || CyberTalk

Hello :) It's nice to be writing(typing) again. Tomorrow is the first day of CA exams and I have to say that I am pretty jacked up. I rarely make blog posts about this stuff but I thought that through this I can help others out there that feel the same way and perhaps somehow help myself.

So. I have been feeling rather down lately. 2 minutes ago I was breaking apart haha. I don't know why but I have been so stressed and overwhelmed with I don't even know what. It could be studies and everything. Idk. Whenever I feel sad or stressed out, I always start to think about those who are so much less fortunate than me. Those who have really tough parents or tough CCA's even. Those who reach home at 6 or 7 everyday because of competitions or tuition etc. I would tell myself that I shouldn't pity myself and blah blah blah. But heres advice for me and all of you reading this: Do not pity or look down on yourself/life. But, at the same time, it is okay for you to feel upset. It is okay for you to sometimes choose not to talk to anyone that day. And it is okay for you to show it. You do not have to smile or laugh or pretend everything is fine when it really isn't. But at the same time, I guess this is how people like me are.
 I just have this 'instinct'. Some people call it a habit. I hide my feelings all the time. I might feel as crappy as ever that day, but I will still pretend everything is fine. Now, I know a lot of people like that. I know when they are trying to hide the fact that they are hurting or just something is bothering them. But at the same time, if you do have the courage or are the type of person to show that you're sad, don't think that you can't smile or laugh at things that are funny or things that 'touch your heart' one way or another. Let yourself smile. Let yourself laugh because then afterwards you'll be happy that something or someone made you smile that day.

SO TO KEEP THE CHEESINESS TO THE MINIMUM, I'm gonna end of this post :)
I know its an abrupt ending but whatevs haha. LOVE YA!

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CLL

50 Facts About Me

Hello! SO I'm doing the 50 facts about myself today as I said I would in the previous post. I got this idea from the youtube tag and you guys can check some videos out if you want to :)) SO LETS START!
1)I am 13 this year.
2)My birthday is on the 22nd of August.
3)My nickname is CLL.
4)My nickname is basically my initials.
5)I have a very loving family.
6)I have specific 'favourite colour' s
7)I like hunter green(preferably with a sheen), maroon/burgundy red, baby pink, tiffany blue and lilac.
8)I enjoy doing arts and crafts.
9)I enjoy any form of art (Visual, Theatre, Music, Dance etc)
10)I used to dance ballet for 3 and a half years.
11)I have a guitar.
12)I have snapped 3 strings of my guitar.
13)I have shattered my previous Iphone 4 thrice.
14)I have a love for animals.
15)I love feathers.
16)I love glitter especially when you mix them together and they look like galaxies.
17)I love sunsets especially those that have pretty colours like purple and pink.
18)I love tinkle lights like those we put on Christmas trees.
19)I love cakes with exquisite designs and pretty colours.
20)I like clouds especially those shaped like bunnies and hearts.
21)I love how high waisted shorts make me feel tall.
22)I love the Deja vu times when I feel like I have seen that exact scene before.
23)I love books about love that make me cry.
24)A lot of things touch my heart in a different way than others.
25)I love old vintage things.
26)I love pictures that make me smile.
27)I love the feeling when I am able to make someone else laugh.
28)I love to smile and laugh.
29)People say I have a 'unique' laugh.
30)I seem to like rain a lot.
31)I am a visual learner.
32)I like how Taylor Swift's songs manage to perfectly describe love in words.
33)I eat too much sometimes.
34)I get insecure sometimes.
35)I worry too much sometimes.
36)I like adventure sometimes haha.
37)I procrastinate a lot.
38)I am a free thinker but I tend to stray from a half Buddhist, half Christian.
39)I love my ability to momentarily forget all my troubles until another day.
40)I love watching airplanes become smaller and smaller until they disappear.
41)I am over-dramatic sometimes.
42)I seem to know what a person is feeling/thinking from their actions.
43)I like having sweet dreams.
44)I had really bad nightmares when I was little.
45)My sister made me spill soup all over my hair once.
46)I love writing.
47)I love how tumblr gives me a chance to look back and know what had touched my heart many years ago.
48)I am quite sensitive.
49)I am really good at hiding my feelings.
50)I love unicorns.
HAHA thats all! KAY LOVE YA!!!

Signing off...
CLL

New things:) || CyberTalk

Hello ^^ So it's been a while since I last posted so here are some things going on in my life :)
   
  One thing that I am really excited about is this event called 'The Colour Run'. It's a 5km un-timed 'marathon' and for every km, there will be different coloured powders thrown at us. I have been trying to be more active nowadays and I'm also trying new things(more down below). I don't think I will be able to run/jog for the entire 5km. I probably would walk sometimes haha. Typical CLL. I think it will be a lot of fun and it definitely will be something new.
  Speaking of trying new things, I have discussed with my friends that we would be going to USS (Universal Studios Singapore) sometime during the holidays. Probably around November or December. It might sound ridiculous but I actually really want to try out the huge roller coasters. I have major motion-sickness and roller coasters scare me a lot haha. But as long as I don't puke after the ride, I'm fine. And even if I do puke... idk... haha. 

  The reason why I started this 'YOLO' mindset is because I want to treasure my teen/young adult years. I really don't want to one day look back and regret not doing anything adventurous or worth-while. I think that it is really important that we make use of the time we have on Earth especially when we are young and abled. I also read a quote the other day: 'Your life only begins when you step out of your comfort zone.' For example, if I forever want to stay in this bubble/zone my entire life, I'll eventually get bored and tired and sick of the same air that I breathe everyday. I'll start to 'die' inside that bubble and it's equivalent to being a walking zombie. This other quote also set me thinking "Most people die at 25. But only get buried at 80.' What's the point of living life when really, all you ever do is stand behind that line for the rest of your life. When you only drink tea but who knows, you might actually love coffee more. When you stick with pink but you actually look so much better in green(random I know haha). We understand ourselves better when we try new things. We learn to adapt to the new things sometimes. And maybe soon enough, those things will seem so comfortable and easy for you that those things that you one day had been too afraid to do, are now in your comfort zone. Who knows? If you try everything in the world, maybe you will have no such thing as a 'comfort zone' anymore. Because you will be infinite.

So this is a really short blog post but with a really important message for myself and for the world.
Basically, if I had to sum the entire last paragraph in a word, it would be 'YOLO!' hahahah! I will try to post another blog post tomorrow about 50 facts abut myself but no promises haha
Okay :) Thanks so much for taking time to read this. LOVE YA!

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CLL