Wednesday, 22 October 2014

Zoella on The Independent


Our generation is very privileged to have such a great access to technology nowadays and many of us use some form on social networking site- whether it is Twitter, Instagram, Facebook and etcetera. Hence, most of us publicise our personal lives on the internet one way or another.

As technology advances and social media sites flourish, many people have started to make a living from the internet. Youtube is such a big thing now and Youtubers are treated like legitimate celebrities. They trend on Twitter, they get awards, they go on TV and they get articles written about them. And of course, they get the dark side as well.

I'm not a well-known Youtuber of any sort, but I'm sure it gets very hard to have all these people all over the world relying on you and watching your every move. It gets hard to have your whole life being accessible to the world. With that, you get different opinions and thoughts, and I thought we were supposed to either express negative thoughts through constructive criticism, or say nothing at all. However, in this blog post, I'll be blogging about this particular article published by The Independent on the Youtuber, Zoella, where the writer, Chloe Hamilton, did the exact opposite.

I'm not Zoe's "NUMBER 1 FAN" but I do enjoy watching her videos. And this year her fame and accomplishments has definitely skyrocketed, giving her a little more attention from the public.

Firstly, I would like to direct you to this specific extract from the article...

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This is the introduction to the article and is already a turn-off. 
The first 5 seconds into reading this article, I already had a very bad impression of the tone and personality of the writer. The fact that she started off describing Zoe in such a manner that is so negative and "irritatingly" rude, shows that this writer is not just critiquing one's personality/actions, but her literal appearance. She just sounds like a envious and immature 10 year old that really has nothing else better to write about. 

In this article, her main standpoint is that Zoe promotes the want for perfection in young girls through her videos. She constantly repeats that it is an "irony" that Zoe tells her viewers not to worry about their appearance when she makes makeup and hair tutorials. She titles this article, "Of Course, Teenage Girls Need Role Models - But Not Like Beauty Vlogger Zoella". 

I have no idea how this article even got published with a mere title of such. 

The entire article was just from her own point of view and was written in an awfully self-centred way. If you read the above extract, it would appear that the writer does not have a good impression on Youtube in general. Zoella was just one of the victims that she decided to pick on. 

Quite a number of well-known Youtubers have beauty/fashion channels and makeup and hair tutorials are very common now. These tutorials are simply just making use of things that are already available to the public. For example, makeup and cosmetics are already a 'thing'. People are already using them. It's not the tutorials that promote the want for a 'flawless complexion', the existence of makeup is. Why not just eliminate makeup altogether? Even without these tutorials, people will still use makeup and they will still feel the need to "cover up their dark circles" or "spots" or "scars" or "blemishes". Since makeup is already existing, these beauty vloggers are just making use of them to share knowledge on different tips and tricks. Therefore, it's not a strong stance to use against beauty vloggers at all. 

Zoella also has a vlog channel that she updates frequently. I really enjoy watching these videos because they are just real and raw. It is a common sight to see Zoe without makeup and with sweats or pyjamas on. The fact that she shows this side of her to her viewers just shows how comfortable she is in her own skin and she encourages that in her viewers. Keep in mind, that these videos have millions of views and it is NOT an easy task.

The real irony comes from the article itself where Chloe Hamilton literally judges her on her appearance and most stupidly of all(pardon my tone), her name and her voice?! It completely rebuts her own point on the subject. She says that Zoe causes more insecurity among girls, yet, she criticises others based on their appearance in such a negative and disrespectful way. It's ironic.

Anyways, yea that's all I wanted to say about this article.
It's really enraging and I'm not even a huge huge fan of Zoella. It's just really disgusting when writers are so unprofessional and rude without knowing how Youtube works or without knowing the actual person.

OKAY I GOTTA GO!

SEE YA!

Signing off...
CLL

Saturday, 18 October 2014

Change.


I can't tell you how many times I have wished that I could go back to the past, slow down the present and never have to face the future. 

Sometimes the past just seemed dream-like and like a utopia. You just wish that things will never change from how amazing it currently is, and sometimes you wish you could go back to how perfect it was. And you fear that the future might be a nightmare, and you never want to face it.

Change has always scared me.
I have a bad habit of overthinking things. I also have a serious case of pessimism.
Hence, the thought that moving forward into the unknown- into something different, it sends me into overdrive. We get so comfortable at one period of time or at one place. And before you know it, life throws you into another whirlwind of uncertainty and adventure.

The thing about time, is that time is like trying to grasp hold of water under a running tap using your fingers. It is like how water always finds a way to find the gap under your door and the hole in your cup and a bend in the river. It always finds a way to jump over any obstacle that it faces.

Time is never ending.
It cannot be stopped.
It cannot be slowed down or moved back.

You don't want to move on. But the waves of the water push you forward anyways.
I guess, we'll just have to get used to it. Our life cannot be stagnant. Just as time passes by.
It is no where near easy to be able to accept change and move on. A lot of times I find myself in a state of reminiscence. Thinking back to all the great times I have had and just missing it so much. I literally break out in sobs because I just can't take the fact that change is beyond my control; being the control-freak that I am.

When it hit me that I had to leave my best group of friends; people who have healed my heart, enclosed it with so much love and care, brought me so much joy and great experiences, and go to a new school with new people surrounding me.... It scared me. Sometimes when I thought about it too much, I had difficulty breathing and I just felt this immense sense of dreariness. 

What If I Don't Fit In? What If They Don't Like Me? What If Every Wound That Was Healed Burst Open Again?

I had to coax myself with pep-talks in front of the mirror and deep breaths to pull myself together and be brave and face the situation in front of me. I plunged head first into the pool of an unknown liquid and "oh my god I don't know what I am doing". Many people from my class would understand that I was the opposite of meek; being one of the first to break my shell and speak out loud. I was really cheery and hyperactive. But I have to admit that there were many times of uncertainty and doubt.

The past 2 years were dotted with times of difficulty, self-doubt and regret. There were times where I wanted to transfer to another school and there were times of utter frustration and anger. Of course, there were dark times. But no matter how much the dark sky threatens to shade everything else, sunshine still manages to cut through the clouds like paper and sprinkle hope in our lives.

The past two years was a roller coaster and a fairytale all in one. How it went by so fast- I'll never know. But what I know is that how I kept every single ray of light and embraced it with appreciation and treasure. I laughed so hard till my sides hurt, I smiled till my cheeks went red, I danced till I made up moves of my own and I shimmied my way through life. When I think about it, my heart fills with warmth and it just feels like it's so full of happiness, it is about to overflow. 

We laughed about signs on trucks and weird cow songs. We named ourself "cowllamapacorns" and designed a cow for the back of our class T-shirt. We took a 5 minute toilet break and made it a 10 minute dance party with the entire cohort and we made a 15 metre long human choo-choo train. We made memes of each other and sang our hearts out. Our form of happiness is not smothering butter but throwing balloons filled with happiness instead of water.  

You guys didn't make my day. You made my life. You made me think that change isn't so bad after all.

We might somehow be divided in our own group of friends. But there will always be a string that ties us all together because we will forever be a part of each other's lives.

YOU will forever be part of my life.

With that,
I want to thank you for letting me embrace the beauty of the unknown and showing me that whatever I might be falling into, something great might be there to break my fall. You guys have so much of my love, I'm surprised I'm not drained of it yet. Next year, a new chapter begins and new uncertainties emerge. But this chapter, with you guys, will forever be in the confines of my book. The glue of our memories will always keep you close to me. 



With Love Always,

Signing off,

CLL








Saturday, 11 October 2014

Where have you been?!


BEFORE YOU KILL ME

I'm so sorry for the lack of posts lately! I've only been posting some really short and pathetic pieces which I know is not good enough and I also apologise for the lack of quality in my recent posts. As you all know, it has been about a week and a half(?) since I finished my final term exams and I honestly have just been catching up on some much needed me-time. I've also just been really unmotivated and uninspired which I know is no excuse and I'm really sorry.

I've just been in a phase where I've been questioning a lot of things in my life and my confidence level has not been the highest. First of all, studies and education has just naturally been really important to me and pretty much everyone in TKGS, especially. And my recent performance in my exams has just got me really down and the thing is, we haven't even gotten our results back yet. I just question myself whether I'm good enough to even be in this school and around such smart and capable people. Secondly, a lot of drama has been happening lately(I can't even believe I'm saying this) and I won't get into detail but it has just made me have doubts about myself and I find myself asking if I'm a bad person or if there really is something wrong with me...

But I've been trying to get back on my feet again and I just think that no matter what happens for this examinations, I'm just going to make it a motivation to work even harder. As for everything else, I'm just going to put it in the back of my mind and try to enjoy my life and my free time right now.

I'm just going to jump right in to my usual updates on what I've been up to lately!


Science Centre & Making Stuff - 25 August
This was way back, even before the Colour Run. But anyways, I went to the Science Centre for a programme about cosmetics and we made lip balm and sun screen! My sun screen turned out great but I think being too excited about the lip balm made me miscalculate things and my lip balm is just pink liquid right now HAHA!


Petrissia is literally one of my favourite people in class. Our favourite hobbies together include dancing like crazy to music in the bus (((:





fun fun fun (:

Temasek MagicLand - 29 August
I only have one picture from this event because I was too busy hugging all my old friends! If you guys didn't know, I was from Temasek Primary School and I met some of my closest friends and some of the best people I know from there. I missed my P6 class so so so much and I'm glad I got to spend some quality time with my bestie, Sheryl whom I HAVEN'T SEEN IN AGES! <3
Sheryl and Hui Qing at the back (:

Interact Installation - 3 September
Don't have any pictures from the event itself but I had loads of fun performing a dance that we rehearsed so much for! I went out with the Divergents(Kim, Tammie, Constance, Hashimah) for dinner after that! MUCH FUN!


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WEFLEASG & out with Oi Wei - 13 September
 I dragged my babe, Oi Wei, out to town because I really wanted to go to this flea called 'WEFLEASG' located at the Five&Dime eatery. I had seen a few great bloggers posting on their instagram saying that they'd be there selling their pre-loved items as well as other well-known blogshops. I was super excited because all the dresses looked so nice and they said things were mostly in the $5-$15 range.
I certainly thought it would be a glamorous event unfortunately, I was greatly disappointed :( I had been to the eatery before and I thought they would be using the fairly large carpark for the flea market, however, they had used the top floor of the eatery which was only slightly bigger than my room. We had to queue for at least an hour and a half(IN THE SCORCHING SUN) till we were able to go inside. And by the time we did, there really was not much nice stuff left :( I actually couldn't even look at the merchandise properly because of the room being so small, everyone had to be in a row, going around the room hence if the person in front of my moved, I had to put down whatever I was looking at and move too so that I wouldn't get shouted at by the people behind me. We also had to put our bags(other than our phone and wallet) in black trash bags probably because they thought we would steal their stuff or something I don't even know. However, kudos to the staff that gave out water and umbrellas to everyone queuing! It was really nice of them.

SORRY FOR MY MINI RANT HAHA!


Oi Wei and I went shopping after that (:





 I wasn't looking at her boobs don't worry HAHAHA!

 Melody Of Hope - 20 September
I consider Tammie to be one of my closest friends and I just had to take some time off to go and support her at a songwriting competition called the Melody Of Hope, that she competed in and ended up winning!!! I can't be more proud of her. I was on the verge of crying but I saved it for when I reached home (:







Sister's B'day gathering - 27 September
I went for my sister's party at a club in town(don't worry I had no drinks and I stayed outside :P). Honestly, I have to admit that other than being really happy to be there for my sister, it wasn't my best experience because I just felt really out of place and I didn't expect to be there for so long... I was halfway through my exams at that time and all that was on my mind was studying lol. My sister was having fun with her friends and my mom had her friends there as well so I just got super bored and I felt really awkward yea it's just not my scene ^^

 




Out With Lauren & Wynnie - 1 October
We had temporary relief from examinations after Math, our last main subject exam. SO Lauren, Wynnie and I went out to watch Maze Runner(WHICH WAS AMAZING) and did more goofing around (: They make me so happy I love em!

I am not in pain I was just laughing so hard HAHA








Lunch with the fan - 3 October & 8 October
Had lunch at Din Tai Fung and spent some quality time with the most important people in my life!



We also went to Kallang Wave Mall for Thai Lunch and went for a bit of shopping (:


 Oi Wei's Birthday Surprise - 6 October
SIDNEY AND I DECIDED TO SURPRISE OI WEI FOR HER BELATED BIRTHDAY and let's just say we suck at birthday surprises because we couldn't light the candle and burnt our fingers and we let our $16 cupcake helium balloon for Oi Wei fly away. We laughed so so so hard but it was so great to see Oi Wei so happy (((:


I got her a dream catcher weehee!!!









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Those were some of the main events that happened but there are also some smaller things that I have pictures of and I thought I'd share them with you guys!'




I finally got the 5th Harry Potter book from Sidney and I'm already almost 400 pages in! I'm so happy to be back reading the series I'm so obsessed! I've also been getting back on track and being more active and healthy. Recently, I've been loving going for Zumba dance sessions with my mom. For those who are interested, Zumba is just like a workout while dancing. They mostly use Latino(?) songs  as well as any popular/recent pop songs. It is a super good workout yet it doesn't feel very tiresome because I absolutely love dancing and it's just enjoyable for me. So far, I'm only managing an hour of cardio Zumba but hopefully I can progress to go on for another hour of Zumba toning where it's almost like pilates, you work your different muscle groups and strengthen them! 

I've also been loving healthy snacks such as what I showed above. It's really simple but super duper yummy. You just need some fruits - I used strawberries and bananas but you can use whatever you like and have at hand. Then you need some yogurt and my yogurt has a vanilla flavour and it tastes so good!!! I got the huge tub of it haha. Then of course you need granola - I have normal granola with chocolate flavoured ones as well. If I have no time to cut the fruits I usually just take some yogurt and mix some granola with it. 

Another snack I've been loving is baby carrot sticks with peanut butter. It's really simple and easy so I do recommend you trying! If you are not a carrot-fan, try apple slices!

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HERE ARE SOME PICTURES I HAVE TAKEN WITH MY FRIENDS....



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Oh! And I've been working on getting more content out on my Youtube Channel lately and I've already uploaded 2 new videos if you haven't seen them...

A haul...

And my recent favourites...
- Do suggest some video ideas as well as blogpost ideas!-

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Yup! That's all that I have for this blogpost today! 
I miss blogging and I'm sorry for being MIA recently!
Thanks for reading!
SEE YA

Signing off...

CLL