Find comfort in the pitter patter of the raindrops.

Find security within your own skin.

Find beauty in dried, withered flowers.

Find hope even in the times most unlikely.

- Li Ling

She tried.

Oh she tried.

She spent so much of her life

Trying to help others

But with their broken pieces

She cut herself.

She tailed behind them

Trying to help to pick up the shards of glass

Without knowing that all she would be 

Would be just that.

Shards,

Never complete,

Never finding each other.

She crumbled down along with them.

And along with the sight of their suffering.

She asked, not quite sure to who,

"Why?"

To her

It seemed unfair

That even the most deserving of happiness

Suffered such hardship.

She tries to tell herself

That life would find a way to perhaps,

Strike a balance

But its hard to have faith in that

When she witnesses

Life seep away from one's eyes,

Light lost forever.

She tells herself

That she wouldn't do this.

That she wouldn't do what she has told so many not to.

She tried.

Oh she tried.

She manages to get through some days

But other days it was just too much.

And her scars

Were painful reminders

Of everything she wrongly blamed herself for-

The pain she has witnessed,

And the unfairness of life.

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- Li Ling

-Writing-

HEY!

Whaddup! The June holidays are right around the corner and wow am I excited. I bet you guys already have loads of plans for the upcoming holiday and may I just take this chance to tell you that you deserve this break and you should definitely make the best of it! Have loads of fun and make lots of memories! Every summer vacation counts right?

Anyways, in many other posts, I have expressed my love for writing and how I think that writing can be amazing self-therapy. In this post, I'll be raving more about it. (Don't get tired of me please haha!)

Of course, I need to keep in mind that not everybody shares the same interests and has the same personalities. Some people may enjoy writing more and some people enjoy talking to someone more. 

If you are not one of those people who enjoy writing more, its okay! Its great that you have your own special ways of doing things. 

 I have come across people who say they want to write and enjoy writing but because they think their English is not good or they don't know how to start and etcetera. But here I am to tell you that if you like and enjoy writing(or doing anything rather), go for it. It doesn't matter if you're insecure about your language abilities. Don't let something like that hinder you from doing what you like (:

I personally think that writing is a great way of expressing your thoughts and feelings, whether they are good or bad and in turn can also help with the coping of stress. Life can get real shitty sometimes and you need an outlet to vent your frustration, hurt or anger. Don't keep it all inside you because you will explode. Trust me. Been there, done that! And I know that some of us are not always up for venting it out on physical activities sometimes because y'know we have our lazy days. And I also do know of the things that may keep us from talking to someone about it. We might be afraid of being judged for being upset over a really small thing for example and maybe we haven't found the right person that we trust yet. Thats okay! Find another way and mine, has been writing.

I started my first diary at the age of 8. 

 And for those who are insecure about your English or anything, at that point in my life I had to take extra spelling and pronunciation classes during recess because I couldn't spell nor pronounce. My English honestly was NOT the best as you can see from my spelling errors in the picture HAHA. Wow I'm so 'scard'.

And I had another in 2009-2010.

As you can see, I was pretty dedicated. HAHA.

Anyways, I think that with your diary you don't have any limits. Write curse words all you want to express exactly how angry you are. Write as long or as short as you want. Use the worst English and paste pictures and draw on it, scribble wildly if you are frustrated etc. You don't have to think about what other people's opinions are because this book is yours and its up to you to use it. 

If you don't how to start, start by randomly writing down your feelings or something you saw that day that ignited a feeling in you some way or another. You don't have to have the best sentence structure. Your English teacher won't be reading it nor grading it. If you are like me and your thoughts are cray cray, just write out whatever is in your head without thinking. I find that this works better when typing because I type faster than I write. And thats good because my thoughts run like theres no tomorrow.

I kinda like having a diary because of this fact- that I have the freedom and the clear mind that won't be clouded with the questions of whether or not people will judge me.

Looking through the pages I laugh at how weird I was. And how I wrote about catching a grasshopper with my best friend and how I was crying because my mother didn't allow me to have a dog xD. And I smile because it brings back the memories of how I was when I was when I was younger. 

I still love writing to this day and I don't think that love is ever going to fade. It is not just a habit anymore its a part of me. I don't own a diary right now. Because I'm still looking for the perfect book for it HAHA! But in the mean time, I type in word documents and save them in my computer. Yes yes of course I do write on my blog, but sometimes things are a tad bit too complicated and confusing to understand, even for me, let alone my readers!

So don't hold back and write all you want. Sometimes, it gets hard to express how you feel in words, I get you haha! But this is really an amazing way to get that weight off your chest. 

I'll leave you with a picture I found the other day that does not exactly pertain to writing. But I guess writing is just one of the ways I 'put the glass down'.

Thanks for reading & have an amazing day!

SEE YA!

Signing off...

CLL

I’m so tired of saying no and waking up in the morning and recalling every single thing I ate the day before. Counting every calorie I consumed so I know exactly how much self-loathing to take into the shower. I’m going for it. I have no interest in being obese; I’m just through with the guilt. So this is what I’m going to do, I’m going to finish this pizza and then we’re going to go watch the soccer game and tomorrow we’re going to go on a little date and buy ourselves some bigger jeans.

- Liz // Eat Pray Love

CLL's Life: Mother's Day, Sports Day, Limelight & more

Oh hi there.

MID YEARS ARE OVER OMG.

Finally whew.

I actually got my results back and no I did not do well SO LETS LEAVE IT AT THAT.

Anyways, ALOT has been happening so here is a lil' update (:

Ice cream with my buds - 9 May

This was the day our exams ended and so we celebrated by having some ice cream after math problem solving -.- so much for a party pooper. I had a great time just from this short little ice cream trip! Gotta love Lauren, Kyra & Kirti (:

can we just take a moment to appreciate how beautiful Lauren is?

Mother's Day - 11 May

We had an amazing Mother's Day brunch at Five & Dime. I had a salmon rocket salad and a really yummy peanut butter & banana smoothie. Sounds interesting but it was so good (:

I can't live without my mom and I think its great to remind ourselves to appreciate the most important woman in our lives. I would never be the person I am today without her (:

Sports Day - 16 May

Had a great time at this event! It started raining halfway and that made it all the better (:

Lepaking xD

<3

I have to thank this girl for always making me laugh and for staying with me when my nose bled haha! And for laughing with me when I pulled out a freaking ginormous vein out of my nose no joke guys it looked like a freaking leech ew.

The amazing Kayleigh and our ang moh literature teacher AHAH

Love this pic hehe

Shopping & Cafes - 18 May

I really wanted to go shopping that day and my sister & boy boy really nicely took me out with them (: They called it babysitting but I call it bonding. Anyways, we had a little brunch at a place called Maple & Market. They have really amazing waffles!!! I also love that this small cafe has a really homey and vintage feel. There were wood furniture and white walls and also handmade decorations hanging from the ceiling. I absolutely loved it there.

"We don't love ice cream because it is good or right or healthy, but because it is not" <3

This is one of the things I bought hehe.

LIMELIGHT - 20 May

I am so proud of all the band members for putting up such a great performance. They deserve all the credit for their hard work. That night was also a really hectic yet fun one (: I met up with 9 other friends and we had subway and went to the venue together. I had an amazing amazing time with them and I can't thank these beautiful girls enough for making the night so great!

Face fail.

Kayleigh, Naila, Kirti, Lauren, Kyra, Petrissia, Wynnifred, Rachel & Lisa = My hot dates for the night!

Our attempts of an oscar selfie.

My new Taiwan friend/senior, Angela!!!

Act step HAHA

Tammie & Wynnie (:

Lea & Naila.

I really like Lea's style she's so posh :P

CHLOOEEEE

Hot sassy Kyra!

Kirti & Sidney my babes

I look really weird in the pic but Alyssa is too beauts I love her

My fav pic of us (:

and one of my fav seniors, KIMBERLY!

She's honestly so so sweet and she is always standing up for me. She's like a hybrid of a older sister and a mother HAH

Okay thats pretty much it for the events that have happened recently (: but as usual, here are some random pictures that I have taken with my friends recently hehe

We played xbox kinect for two hours straight during our free period (: One of those little things that I love and am grateful for!

MEGAN! This sweetheart sits next to me in Chinese class and I've gotten so much closer to her this year and I'm so glad (: She is so sweet and cute and fun to be around. She's a pro photographer as well (:

HAHA we had a netball game today and it was so fun! I didn't wanna stop. This is me and Petrissia after the game hehe.

 Yup thats it! Thank you guys for reading and I hope you have an amazing day today!

Much love!

Signing off...

CLL

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