When You Are.

When you are so happy,
Sounds of laughter cease to be heard.
When you are so in love,
Weaknesses can no longer be seen.
When you are so cold,
You can no longer feel your feet.
When you become so tired,
Your body can no longer feel fatigue.
When you are in so much pain,
It all becomes numb.
When you cry so much,
Your reservoirs have run dry.

Heart, Settle.

Today,

I managed to describe how my heart feels when it is nervous.

It becomes encapsulated in a bubble,

A vacuum,

Sound-proof.

It feels like it is submerged in water,

Like how you let go of a rock

Slowly,

At the surface,

But it drops to the bottom faster than you'd like it to.

As it reaches the depths,

Feeling subsides,

Like a paintbrush going up your arm,

Like eyes tracing your face,

Chin to forehead.

That happens for a second,

Till it is numb for yet another.

But then you feel a sliver of silver,

Skin on cold metal,

It almost makes your bubble quiver.

Then it settles,

The moment of fear and anxiety washes over you,

You force yourself to think about something else.

These episodes will come again and again,

But they will never feel old.

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